too much

It’s been a little bit of a crazy week in the Hoekstra house. Somehow John ended up with 3 different social things and 1 work thing this week. Bad bad bad luck. Not usual at all. One is an end of the season softball party that his team has every year that he has not gotten to go to, the second is a good friend is coming into town that he rarely gets to see and the third is the U of L vs. UK football game. I see why he would want to do them all and I do not have the heart to ask him to skip any of them. So I have been trying to grin and bear (not doing the best job, hehehe) it all knowing that next week he is home all week and I have a few fun things coming up. So the work dinner was Wednesday night, softball thing tonight, seeing Matt tomorrow and game Saturday. Ugh!!!!!!! So on Tuesday after working all day and rushing home to get the kids and knowing I would have to rush and get dinner together and looking towards the next few days and being hot and 36 weeks prego and just not comfortable I get to Av’s school and there is a big tracing of her that we have to decorate and bring back Thursday. Thursday?!?!?! What? How am I supposed to add that to my schedule??? My Wednesday was already totally filled. We were going to play with a friend in the morning, then head straight to Av’s speech at 12:45 and then I had to drop Camille off at a friend’s so she could nap there while Av and I had 2:30 and 3:00 dentist appointments to rush back and pick up Camille. Then I guess off to the craft store to get stuff to decorate Av, then rush home to make/decorate Av, do dinner, bath and bed by myself. Thursday (today) I have to work all day, rush and get the girls, rush to hbr, rush home (hopefully get home by 7) to have a late dinner and put the girls in bed again by myself. At that point I just lost it. I sat on the couch Tuesday after work with the girls playing around me and cried and cried and cried. I could not pull myself back together. I was crying so hard I could not even explain to John why I was crying. So overwhelmed and uncomfortable and hormonal and just done. Now I love my husband dearly and I know he means well and was just trying to help but his suggestions were to skip the friends in the morning and put the girls in school another day?!?!? What?!?! Skip the one thing I had in my schedule in the next 72 hours that was fun so you could make it to all 3 of your social things?!?! Are you kidding me? I just wanted to punch him at that point. The suggestion to put the girls in school another day is totally meant to be sweet and when I have baby E I may for a month or two but right now? Put them in school another day now??? NO!!!!!! I am home, I want to be with them, I just want help at night when you should be home!!! He is the best husband though; I don’t want to make him look/sound bad. He is trying and would stay home if I asked him too and he went to the craft store for me and got GREAT stuff to decorate Av with so that was a huge help. We made it through Wednesday and although the girls were pretty bad we actually managed to have a fun day and I canceled hbr for today so that just makes things 100% better. Av has a cold right now and her energy is lower so I just felt like after being at school all day hbr would be too much on her anyway so I felt it was best for her and I to cancel. So that takes a LOT of stress off of me and I feel a million times better. He got home after the kids went to bed last night but still in plenty of time for us to get some time together so that was nice. Tonight he will not be home at all but he is not leaving Friday until the girls are in bed and Saturday he now has a ticket for me if I want to go to the game with him so it’s all fine. As it usually is, bc he makes it that way for me after I have my little dramatic fit. Hehehehe He’s so good to put up with me.