Baby E just come already!!!

Man he’s a rocking and a rolling right now. Think he’s dancing in there. He likes when I come to work and just sit. It’s his active time. Even more active than when we are trying to sleep. We have had an exciting few days since I last posted. First off on Thursday when I visited the dr there was no change. I was so sad. Not the news I was hoping to hear. Plus she mentioned the induction word and I DO NOT want to be induced so it made me so sad. They will only let me go to 41 weeks and I am going to wait him out as long as I can. So we will see, I may need to be induced but as of right now I am thinking positive and hoping that it will not come to that. So on the way back to work I caused a small fender bender. OMG I was so upset with myself. I can’t believe I did that. We were all stopped at a red light and I saw the light turn green and in my preoccupied state my foot went to the gas almost automatically after a second or two that would be the normal wait for the cars to start at a green light. Hit the car in front of me and then in my panicked state I think I hit the gas more instead of the break?!?!?!? I just wanted to die. I was fine and I knew baby E was fine. We were barely moving but I did push the car in front of me into the car in front of him. UGH!!!!!! This happening in my already hormonal state on top of the bad news I had just received was not good. I was so mad at myself for making such a huge mistake. I still am, but luckily I have the best husband in the world who had managed to get me to laugh about it. Can you believe how good he is? After he made sure we were okay he just said things happen and now is laughing about it. Still can’t believe after I do something that huge he can be so understanding about it. I am one lucky girl. So anyway the van is pretty much fine. It has a few scratches on it and some rub marks. Nothing we will get fixed right now. The car in the middle had some bumper issues and the front car had a little less bumper issue. So hopefully it will not be too big of a deal. Ugh, life really stinks sometimes. On a different note I have had regular contractions on Sat, Sun and Monday night. So much so that last night we called J’s sis over to spend the night just in case. I really thought it was time. They were coming around 6 to 7 minutes apart. Not really hurting so I was just waiting for that. I thought it would take a few hours but once they did start hurting I knew it would not be long. John downloaded a “contraction log” app on his iPhone and there we sat. Trying to watch the premier of How I Met Your Mother but too distracted really. Then they stopped!!!!!! Right after we got Molly on her way. Ugh. So disappointed. I am just so ready to meet him and hold him. Can’t wait. So it’s coming. I hope. I hope these non-painful contractions are doing something. I can’t take another “no change” on Thursday.