happy Av!

Av still just loves her new big girl bed. She talks about it a lot and has all her friends lined up and covered up on it all the time (that’s what she does not want sister messing up, sister is not even allowed on the bed. Kind of sad but we want Av to have her own space if that’s what she wants). I didn’t realize how much it would mean to her to have a real big girl bed. If I had, we would have done it ages ago. It makes her so happy and I love to be able to make her happy like that.

carefree

How nice would it be to be a 2 year old again and not have a care in the world? To not have a single worry like only a 2 year old could. Even if you have a fleeing thought like “where’s my mom, she’s not in my sight” it is gone a minute later. It’s kind of freeing to think about. Yesterday I took the girls to a indoor play place bc it’s still WAY to hot to be outside (101 today). Av was responsible and took her shoes off in the designated spot and put them away. Camille on the other hand ran into the first bouncy she could find and started playing. Then decided she didn’t want her shoes so she just took them off and left them there. Who does that other than a 2 year old??? No concern about what would happen to the shoes next. She just simply didn’t want them on her feet so she took them off. As easy as that. When I got back to the play place the shoes were not only not where they should have been but they were also no where to be found. Everyone was looking for them and the only reason we knew she took them off in a bouncy was bc the bigger kids told us. She didn’t know and simply didn’t care. We left shoeless after they promised to call when they are found. She was pretty sad today though she didn’t have her “sparkly shoes.” I tried to tell her that she lost them yesterday but she did not at all seem to be getting that. All she knew is that she wanted her shoes and they are always there when she wants them and that is what she is used to. To be a 2 year old again and have no responsibilities or consequences to your actions.

Saturday

We had the most perfect family day Saturday. We had planned a family “tailgate” to watch the U of L football game and the State game. The U of L was on first at 5. So we had some yummy food to make and got the girls in some red and green. While I was making dinner and John was watching the game Camille was out in the fenced in back yard. We were watching her from the windows. At one point John wondered where she was so went to investigate. She came running into view with her arms up in the air and was saying, “I picking tomatoes!!!” She had 2 handfuls of cherry tomatoes. It was one of the cutest things I have ever seen and heard. After watching the “Go Cards” for a little bit (and I mean minutes) the girls wanted to go outside and play. It was a perfect evening so I took them. We played on the swings forever. C even wanted her baby swing switched out for a big girl swing like Avery’s. She looked so big on that swing. She is growing too fast. John came out for a bit and I went in for some reason. Av hopped back on her swing and minutes later John noticed that she was full-fledged swinging all on her own. She had gotten herself started and everything. She was so proud of herself and has been telling everyone now that she can “pump all by myself on my big girl swing!” So cute. After that John lit a fire and we made smores. Av knew exactly what we were doing and was very excited. C on the other hand just wanted marshmallows. Av went to town and loved every bit of hers. C refused to touch her smore so John had a bite and handed it to me. I didn’t really want it but after a minute had a bite. Well I could not stop at one bite and it was soon gone. Just then is when C decided she wanted it and threw a royal fit. After another marshmallow she was fine. We put them to bed on a sugar high. Saturday ended with a GREAT MSU football game. I am really glad I stayed up to see the end of it. What a great play in OT to fake going for a field goal and score a touchdown. I just love my Spartans so much!!! John had fallen asleep but I could not keep my shock/happiness to myself and my cheering woke him up. Hehehe oops.

pictures

We finally had our family pictures taken last night. Somehow the summer got away from us. I really wanted to have them taken with my baby bump so we waited till that got a little bigger (hehehe) then we had to keep waiting bc the terror kept bruising her face. First she hit the corner of that dresser with her eye and then her cheek at the park. (Which you can still see a faint bruise from). They were supposed to be summer pictures and all summer I knew what the girls were going to wear. I had cute almost matching dresses picked out for them. Well when it was finally scheduled for last night the girl taking the pictures mentioned a place that had sunflowers and pumpkins. So that threw me into a panic wanting more fall outfits for them. I think we got some great shots though. It was fun. I just wanted pics of us hanging out interacting with each other. Nothing too posed. We had to walk a long way on this path for the pumpkins and the irony of it all was that once we got there the sunflowers were dead and the pumpkins were rotted. Ugh. She said they were there and beautiful just last week. I guess it’s been so hot this late summer the crops are just turning fast. (high of 96 today when usual high for this time of year is 78, oh my!!) We called a few apple orchards on Sat and all the apples had been picked already bc of the heat. Crazy. So it was hot and the way back we ended up having to carry the girls. That’s when my contractions started. Guess baby E was mad at me for that one. Not mad enough to come out though. I can’t wait to get our pictures back!!!

Baby E just come already!!!

Man he’s a rocking and a rolling right now. Think he’s dancing in there. He likes when I come to work and just sit. It’s his active time. Even more active than when we are trying to sleep. We have had an exciting few days since I last posted. First off on Thursday when I visited the dr there was no change. I was so sad. Not the news I was hoping to hear. Plus she mentioned the induction word and I DO NOT want to be induced so it made me so sad. They will only let me go to 41 weeks and I am going to wait him out as long as I can. So we will see, I may need to be induced but as of right now I am thinking positive and hoping that it will not come to that. So on the way back to work I caused a small fender bender. OMG I was so upset with myself. I can’t believe I did that. We were all stopped at a red light and I saw the light turn green and in my preoccupied state my foot went to the gas almost automatically after a second or two that would be the normal wait for the cars to start at a green light. Hit the car in front of me and then in my panicked state I think I hit the gas more instead of the break?!?!?!? I just wanted to die. I was fine and I knew baby E was fine. We were barely moving but I did push the car in front of me into the car in front of him. UGH!!!!!! This happening in my already hormonal state on top of the bad news I had just received was not good. I was so mad at myself for making such a huge mistake. I still am, but luckily I have the best husband in the world who had managed to get me to laugh about it. Can you believe how good he is? After he made sure we were okay he just said things happen and now is laughing about it. Still can’t believe after I do something that huge he can be so understanding about it. I am one lucky girl. So anyway the van is pretty much fine. It has a few scratches on it and some rub marks. Nothing we will get fixed right now. The car in the middle had some bumper issues and the front car had a little less bumper issue. So hopefully it will not be too big of a deal. Ugh, life really stinks sometimes. On a different note I have had regular contractions on Sat, Sun and Monday night. So much so that last night we called J’s sis over to spend the night just in case. I really thought it was time. They were coming around 6 to 7 minutes apart. Not really hurting so I was just waiting for that. I thought it would take a few hours but once they did start hurting I knew it would not be long. John downloaded a “contraction log” app on his iPhone and there we sat. Trying to watch the premier of How I Met Your Mother but too distracted really. Then they stopped!!!!!! Right after we got Molly on her way. Ugh. So disappointed. I am just so ready to meet him and hold him. Can’t wait. So it’s coming. I hope. I hope these non-painful contractions are doing something. I can’t take another “no change” on Thursday.

Sis in town

My sis came in this week to help me and to be with the girls in case I went into labor. No such luck. Anyway we had a great time!!!!!!!!! She got in Thursday in time to go with us to hbr. Thank goodness she was there. She saved me. I was still a wreck from my wreck and needed the company. So off to hbr we went where she really helped me entertain C, then off to dinner where she took Av potty for me bc I had just finally sat down to eat after getting the girls settled and then she took C into the playroom for me while I did finish my dinner. It was so nice. That night we stayed up and watched the first 2 episodes of America’s next top model a show she got me hooked on. It was great girl time. On Friday she helped me all day with the girls. We ran and ran and ran. Drop Av off at school, take C to music, grocery store, home to put stuff away and make lunches, pick Av up, park for lunch, home for naps and then a school family picnic for Av. Busy day!! It was so fun having company on all our adventures together. She even took the girls outside to play for me while I got 30 minutes of peace in a shower by myself!!!!!!!! It was wonderful. That night we kicked J out and enjoyed a chick flick. So fun!!! She had to leave Saturday morning but the few days we had together were wonderful!!! Thanks Aunt Anne! The girls love you.

week 38

Never again will I be in this state of 100% anticipation. Every twinge, every pain, every time my belly tightens I stop and wonder if now’s the time. Every night I go to bed wondering if I’m going to be woken up with contractions. Every time I bend over or pick up C I hope my water will break. I wonder about it constantly. It’s always in the back of my mind. When will it happen? Will it happen at a convenient time, meaning will it be easy for us to just take off to the hospital or will J be dropping me of with girls in tow until someone can stay with them??? Just such a state of unknown. There is not too much in life that happens that is as huge as this and you have no idea when it is going to happen. That’s the really cool part of it. Just a waiting game. My two girls were pretty stubborn about coming out. They both have to be talked into it. Av with meds and C with my dr working things. In the end though when C decided to come there was NO stopping her or even slowing her down. I have a dr appointment today. Wonder where I will be??? I went to bed last night after having a few big contractions and I really thought, “Tonight is the night!!” Guess it wasn’t though bc baby E is still happily kicking away in my big belly.