bubble burst

I've been MIA again recently but this time there was a reason. My bubble burst last week. It's changed a lot for me, I guess mainly it just opened my eyes to something I knew in my head was coming but I was really hoping it wasn't. Av's teacher called me last Thursday about her and school. I guess it actually started on Wednesday. She came home from school with her school work all messed up. She had gotten more than half the stuff wrong on 3 different work sheets. It was the worst I have ever seen it. Usually it's all pretty good other than her numbers and we knew that and had been working on them. As soon as I handed her the worksheet she was able to pretty much correct them on her own. It was very silly stuff that ever C knew. Huge red flags went up in my head. J was traveling so that sucked too. We went over it and then I told her over and over again that she had to try her hardest, slow down and concentrate on her work. I then put a note in her folder for her teacher to call me. The next day I was just waiting on her teacher. I went to my work out class but kept my phone with me so I could talk when she called. Of course she called during my class. The the worst part was she was not really calling me back about the worksheets, it was something worse. Her writing and expressing herself on paper is not the best. Basically the jist of it is that Av is falling behind her classmates in the fine motor stuff. They either can't make out what she has written or drawn or she just scribbles. By this time in the year that should be improving. Her teacher said she could tell Av knew the stuff but just can't get is out. Like in a dramatic sense of it she is somewhat trapped in her low muscle tone body. Now I know there are truly people trapped in their bodies and Av is not one of them but sometimes it just feels that way. It's so unfair. So a lot has transpired since last Thursday. I have thought it over and gone over and over and over it again with John and my good friend. I think there are a lot of different things at play here. One her teacher is not pushing her hard enough. The teacher at one point said to me that when other kids bring scribble up to her she makes them go back and re-do it but she does not know how often to do that with Av. ALL THE TIME! This last weekend was a long weekend (they had mon and tues off) and Av and I WORKED so much. Not only can she do it but she wants to. She is interested in it. We finished 2 work books and worked a ton in a wipe off workbook. She loves it and is doing so well. I also talked to her OT about it all and she was surprised. Av is doing great with her. I know that is one on one time, but still. Av can do it, she can write and she can draw (she was drawing apples and they blew my mind). She just needs to not be lazy and not take the easy way out and it's up to her teacher not to let her. Her teacher has moved Av's seat in the classroom so Av is closer to where the teacher spends most of her time. So hopefully that will help Ms. Roth be on Av a little more. She does need extra help, so we are doing that at home and they are starting the process to get an OT in the room at least once a week to help Av. Hopefully it will all be ok. We will see. She is happy though. Still loves school and socially things are great so that's a big plus. I was just so surprised it had gotten so bad so quickly but the positive is that the school jumped right on it and there is plenty we can do and get to help her. She is always going to have to work 10 times harder on things than the average kid. That part just sucks. I wish so much for her it was not like that, but what can you do? The most important thing though is she is happy. As long as she stays that way nothing else matters.