life

Wow have I been bad. I have not posted in so long. I feel so guilty. Then I feel overwhelmed with all the stuff I have missed posting about. The overwhelmed feeling has made me shy away even more. Needless to say I just need to jump back in and start posting. Just move forward and forget what I have not written about in the past month. We are all doing great. Av LOVES school. She is doing so well and we could not be more proud. She is making friends and fitting right in with her classmates. She is still riding the bus and I love that we were brave enough to tackle that challenge. Her being the one that actually did it and me being the one that let go enough to let her. I volunteer at her school every Wednesday in the library. I kind of forced my way in. I emailed her teacher to volunteer, signed up for everything imaginable at the open house, emailed the PTA but still nothing. So one Wednesday I just showed up. They sent me to the library and I have been there since. They keep me busy and I usually run into her teacher and I get to give her a kiss in the lunch room. I love it. I just want people to know the Hoekstras there. Know that we are a great family and we are there to help make Wilder an even better school than it already is. I also want to know what is going on. I want to see her in her new element so I can picture her there and know what she is doing. I want to be involved and be a part of her new life.

Camille is great too. She likes her new school. Although she never wants to go but she is happy when I pick her up. She will be my child that makes up an illness so she can stay home. She is going to be the one that I will have to constantly be on to get up and get ready for school and "yes you have to go to school today." She loves the days she gets to stay home and the first words out of her mouth when her eyes open are, "do I have to go to school today?" I usually try to avoid the question bc if the answer is yes then all I hear until I drop her is, "I don't want to go to school." She is fine once there and fine at drop off. She is usually teary eyed when I get her just bc she knows the goodbye song and knows that is all that is standing between her and me on the other side of the door. On Wednesday she goes to after care and that is a whole another fight. Again though when I pick her up she is as happy as can be. Even more so than when she does not go to after care. It's those days that she says, "I love my new school." She is cuter than cute though. Singing her days of the week and her, "I am special song." Too cute