life with Camille

Things have been a little rough with Camille again. She just makes me want to pull my hair out (or really something way worse). On Friday she decided in the middle of the hallway of Av's school she didn't want to walk any more. I was carrying Everett in his car seat and just couldn't carry both. No amount of talking, bribery or punishment was working. What was I to do? I had to get Avery to her classroom and I couldn't and wouldn't at that point carry her. No way I was giving in. I told her I was going to leave her there and walked down the hallway. She didn't care and didn't move. I stood at the corner and watched Camille stand there blocking everyone's way and watched Avery the other way take herself to her classroom. I must say that everyone could see that I was having a very bad morning and no one offered to help. I really wanted to leave Camille there at that point. Monday she didn't want to take Avery to school so she was just sitting there and not at all letting me get her out of the house. Again what could I do? I have to get Av to school and Camille has to come. Can't leave her here but oh how I wish I could. I end up yelling and then I hate myself afterwards for it. I am just at a loss on how to deal with her and I get very stressed in time crunches getting the 3 of them out of the house. It's hard. Very hard. Life is hard and I know how lucky I am trying to remember that. I know yelling is not good so I try so hard to hold it together with her. She just pushes and pushes until I can't hold it together any longer. So lately I have been measuring how my day has been on a yelling scale. Today was a great morning she didn't push even once so the yelling mommy monster didn't even have to be stifled. She can be so sweet and cute though too. She loves and needs to be cuddled every morning. Love that time with her. She talks in her little voice and in her 2 year old speech and it's just so cute the words and sounds she uses. After dinner last night we got ice cream. She ate every drop of the ice cream to the point that she used a spoon to get the ice cream out of the cone and then tipped her head back to have the last few drops run into her mouth. Nothing like a 2 year old on a sugar high. So cute. She pointed to her cone and said, "no like that!" This was after she ate 2 cup fulls of green beans. She loves green beans. Hopefully her teachers at school got that diaper. Ok I know I am all over the place with this post. I just want her to know someday how difficult she was and how much she drove me crazy but how much I love her for it. She really challenges me.